October 2004 Archives

真豁達。害我老是哼。 While We're in Love by Ivy While we're in love We'll bleed each other dry We'll hold each other close We'll make each other cry While we're in love We'll get what we deserve Until we lose our faith Until we lose our nerve We know it won't last forever 'Cause we're not meant to be together Make the best of a bad situation Face the fear and the desperation While we're in love While we're in love While we're in love We'll drag ourselves around We'll hold each other up We'll tear each other down We know it won't last forever 'Cause we're not meant to be together Make the best of a bad situation Face the fear and the desperation While we're in love While we're in love 不能偷，不能搶，所以我們冷靜的開心一場。

Playboy and his bank account. We are.

Argh. Fook it. I lost, you friggin' cigarette-selling, pantyhose-stealing, Cialis-hustling wankstas! 老娘今天太累了，死比爾蓋茲害我裝了個王八世紀超難用service pack 2(對啦，我是白痴！)結果把我忠實但苦命的電腦弄得一團亂，上來看又發現spam這麼多，要殺還沒辦法一次清除，險些叫人氣急攻心。就算我是電腦麻瓜也不能這樣對我吧。 PS. 今年紅襪對紅雀......爸爸賭氣說「啊他們打幾百場我都不會看啦！」哈哈哈，最好是啦。

The latest entry in the criminal profile of Tash the maniac: 11 Things about Tash Observed by Jamie H. 1. She likes continental breakfast. 2. She can't decide to cheer for Yankees or Red Sox this year. 3. Out of the Fab 5, she likes Jai best. 4. She once broke a door in Oxford. 5. She's got a knack for imitating accents. A Meryl Streep-in-training. 6. She's full of contradictions. 7. Also full of surprises. 8. She has said "Kids are so kinky." 9. There's no doubt that she is particularly fond of corn. 10. She loves autumn. 11. She deserves 48 hours a day. Note from the maniac: I love Jamie too. Always has something nice to say.

I'm a young woman so I don't take no for an answer.

很抱歉，其實我想說的是一件已經被講到爛的事情。 以前從來沒有加入，是因為覺得這會慢慢改變，沒什麼好不高興的。但是昨晚真的夠了。 很久沒跑音樂會的我，昨夜帶了像要出國逃命的行李，拖著撞到的右腳蹣跚爬到音樂廳，和程度毫不遜色的同伴布兄互笑「你的登機門在另外一邊啦！」連寄物處的小姐都想笑。準備好了，狼狽由他，我要好好聽音樂。 我不是大師，不是樂評，不是音樂老師。但是我有好好聽音樂的權利。無意寫樂評，所以只想說，昨晚的林昭亮有時會出些問題，有時中規中矩，但也有許多時候身劍合一。我相信大家都想分享小提琴家這樣的魔幻時刻。 第一首曲目是貝多芬的《春》奏鳴曲，第一樂章結束，啪啪啪啪。Let's clap whenever those guys stop playing. 第二樂章結束，啪啪，小提琴家舉起右手溫柔堅定地請大家別拍了。我則拳頭握緊。Allegro molto將結束時，我和夥伴幾乎是停止呼吸，為「萬一有人放炮」準備。幸好大家都尊重演奏家的右手掌。 及至第四樂章最後一個音符完結，剛剛忍了好久的人終於開始狂暴啪啪啪啪啪啪啪。 不是假道學，但是樂章間不鼓掌這條規矩會存在是有原因的。儘管我也不是很喜歡這條規矩的理由，但如果台上的人都請你別拍了，那是不是可以幫他個忙？ 如果真不確定該不該拍，也大可以不拍。鼓掌還是小事。 接下來是俊美才子Esa-Pekka Salonen題獻給林昭亮的曲子《笑忘》，對於現代樂曲我沒什麼神經，一聽竟然聽出興趣來。(果然是北歐人會寫的曲子，在洛杉磯混再久也不會變，我暗想)由於大家對這首曲子都不熟悉，於是開始有人開懷咳嗽，「咱們來咳個痛快反正這很難聽」，"let's knock ourselves out coughing because this is some impossible crap." 而這樣的喉嚨不適是會傳染的，於是他咳她也咳，又一首曲子變成無辜的「停嗽場」；而其他認真聽的人，接收到的是一首「咳嗽卡農版笑忘remix」。 不喜歡的曲子、糟透了的演奏確實值得給個不平之鳴，真要爛到一個地步，就算噓聲四起大概也很適當。但是昨晚沒有那麼糟吧？身為一個擁有破爛呼吸道的人，我也很清楚有時感覺來了非咳不可，不過，離座到外頭去咳個通體舒暢不是更舒服的選擇？以前碰過一位愛樂阿媽，她的禮節(etiquette)多到規定自己要聽音樂會當天如果喉嚨不舒服，絕對先喝咳嗽糖漿。而且會先開好一小瓶帶在小包裡備用。這是「六星級」準備，我們普通人不必這麼厲害，但我還是推薦「易地解決」──如果要咳就換地方盡量咳，咳到爽再回來，反正咳成這樣也聽不到多少音樂，別為了幾千幾百或是面子問題害苦自己。 (真沒想到，只是聽個音樂而已，居然牽拖到建議別人怎麼照顧自己。) 我相信一條簡單法則：演奏家為了演出花一輩子養成和準備，花錢的大爺們，就算是看猴子也要知道牠是台灣獼猴還是白眉長臂猿。所以請做個簡單功課：看節目表。這個小動作可以解決很多事，除了上面提過的「拍手規矩」，還會讓你省去不必要的懷疑或擔憂，例如昨晚： 前前一排的小姐，轉過頭無限憂慮地：「怎麼沒鋼琴？」 因為現在這首，是一個叫巴哈的古人寫的第三號小提琴無伴奏組曲啊，太太。 到了蓋希文/海飛茲的"It Ain't Necessarily So"，聽得正開心，卻被一個閃光嚇了一跳，這才發現有觀眾從三樓拍照。真是傻眼。也許算走運，這種事我還第一次碰到。 結束時，我對曾經在小提琴天后獨奏會碰到有人的節目表從三樓砸下、在台南聽過傅聰邊彈邊請大家「不要吵」的老經驗布兄說：「嗯......今晚只差沒人掉節目表...」他哈哈一笑。 不可忽略的好事是昨晚去的小朋友都很讚。有些小朋友的禮貌與對人的尊重比坐二樓前半的大人都好。證明了你不需要開戴姆勒克萊斯勒家的車，也可以很舒服開心地聽好音樂。 也幸好林昭亮個性溫柔開朗(聲音又好聽到可以主持廣播節目)，洗過澡換了夏威夷襯衫出來，還是和鋼琴家老奶奶一起微笑地為大家簽名，碰到小朋友還問他們在家乖不乖，身體好不好之類的。各人都該自有風格，但那些後輩「巨星」真該多想想啊！ 好了，講完了，下肥皂箱啦。甭鼓掌了，一派老話。

10月14日星期四 辦公室內天氣：冷氣超強──除了毛衣外套還要加pashmina才夠，真要命。再加上棒針毛線，我就成了老太太了... 1. 天哪，我是真的老了還是怎麼著？到底是誰硬讓我在車上聽到鳳飛飛的《阮不知啦》，全身骨頭酥麻，之後還緊接著劉家昌自唱、編曲精美的《一簾幽夢》？而且還想再‧聽‧一‧次？難道我真的從搖滾ㄚ頭變成了小調人？我真的要加入老人會了嗎？ 最糟的是，我拼了命想要找MP3，對岸的非法慈善組織大概只聽普通話歌曲，任我怎麼找，就是沒有這首《阮不知啦》，「飛飛歌曲搜尋計畫」某個方面算成功啦，如果以「找到八百多個《祝你幸福》檔案」這方面來看...至於我心繫的《阮不知啦》，只有江蕙版、蔡幸娟版，凡是列有鳳版的網址全都不得其門而入。 所以，誰來幫幫我啊！救救我中蠱的耳朵吧。如果有十方大德好心告知或直接傳檔，娜阿蝦當義不容辭致贈好片一張。 2. 這就是搖滾精神啊！Rock on! You go girl! (喔對了，別忘了Charlize Theron是如何被發掘的...) Questions: 1. How do you play it cool when you have a new assistant coming, who asks a lot of you before she even starts assisting you - or before she even understands that she should? How can one learn to be a well-respected supervisor? (Help! I'm just not cool!) 2. How do you survive in a cubicle where music playing is not allowed?

對啦，我一直都不提，現在終於要來廣告啦。 不是我的書啦。是Bob爺的。 請看Janet Maslin如何描述Bob爺的自傳第一部。其他還有很多個別人寫過，讀完以後發覺還是自己看最好。(報導旁的那張照片老讓我想起他兒子Jakob) 嗯，Simon & Schuster又要削爆了。

10月9日星期六 天氣晴/有風 1. 見鬼了。那個不愛吃蔬菜的Brian Wilson真的是天才啦！早就覺得他是天才，現在只有更確定而已！ 2. 大概真的很喜歡matinée這個字，先是在幾年前開始瘋狂愛上Rufus Wainwright這個matinée idol，現在又不停地哼唱這首"The Dark of the Matinée"。我也不知道這個團為什麼要用那個被暗殺的斐迪南大公來做團名，也許就一個爽字。 The Dark of the Matinée by Franz Ferdinand You take your white finger Slide the nail under The top and bottom buttons of my blazer Relax the fraying wool Slacken ties and I'm Not to look at you in the shoe But the eyes Find the eyes... Find me and follow me Through corridors refectories And files you must follow Leave this academic factory Will find me in the matinée The dark of the matinée It's better in the matinée The dark of the matinée is mine Yes it's mine I time every journey To bump into you accidentally I charm you and tell you Of the boys I hate, all the girls I hate All the words I hate, all the clothes I hate How I'll never be anything I hate You smile, mention something that you like Oh, how you'd have a happy life If you did the things you like... Find me and follow me Through corridors refectories And files you must follow Leave this academic factory Will find me in the matinée The dark of the matinée It's better in the matinée The dark of the matinée is mine Yes it's mine So I'm on BBC2 now Telling Terry Wogan how I made it and What I made is unclear now But his deference is And his laughter is My words and smile are so easy now Yes it's easy now Yes it's easy now... Find me and follow me Through corridors refectories And files you must follow Leave this academic factory Will find me in the matinée The dark of the matinée It's better in the matinée The dark of the matinée Well, find me and follow me Through corridors refectories And files you must follow Leave this academic factory Will find me in the matinée The dark of the matinée It's better in the matinée The dark of the matinée is mine Yes it's mine 一首歌裡有matinée又有blazer，對於某些符號或暗示無法抗拒的我，當然轉不過頭去。 3. 找房子找到要發狂。可憐的同事、朋友被我拖著到處去看屋(其實也可以自己去，只是大家都像媽媽那樣說「不要自己一個人去啦」)，還陪我到處嫌來嫌去。昨晚和Cassy通電話，她說芝加哥都還好找些。我笑說，這風涼話我已經說過啦。 為芝加哥害相思中。



4. 又一鄭重推薦：Yann Tiersen的Black Session。 Tiersen是近年來在歐陸紅到爆的配樂家，作品無不超級知名，例如Amélie。但這張非電影配樂作品絕不遜色，還有不少重量級的特別來賓，而且是非常有趣、音色也很好的現場錄音。如果你窮到要賣用過的毛巾還想去巴黎，或更機車瘋癲一點想穿梭時空到60年代的柏林，這就是你的暫時解藥了。 Special Mention by the Jury: Bjork的1990年舊作Gling-Gló，好久沒聽了，今天剛找出來還是一樣好聽。粗暴、細緻、甜美、原始、爆發力、壓迫感一樣不缺。雖然還沒買Medulla，這居然已經足夠撫慰成天辛苦而長水泡的腳丫。好音樂的魔力啊。

Is Einstein the sexiest man in history?

累。沒力氣多說話，只好讓最近回家路上最常哼的這首歌幫我吐氣了。悠長、近乎民謠的樂句讓我可以暫時不把背挺直。 有些事情讓人忍不住在最不該想的時候去想，儘管只是想想而已。儘管無害。 想起昨晚保羅在那「盍各言爾志」的氣氛中問我一句「你到底追求的是什麼？」我給他一個無力的微笑，盡量認真地說「就放心而已。」 Telling Them by Starsailor We set off that day Shaking all the way Would your mother speak to us again Put away your doubt That won't help us out Just be sure to call before you ground The sun shone The wind cried So long Good night Lay your body down For the here and now Just be sure to win before you're out How're you feeling now? Living with the crown Look at her and say you've been let down The sun shone The wind cried So long Good night By the book or by the gun There's fear inside of everyone Turn your head to face the sun And love will keep you safe By the book or by the gun There's fear inside of everyone Turn your head to face the sun And love will keep you safe